I haven’t written a blog since May, and a lot has changed. I discovered a biological father and an entire side of my family I never knew, while struggling with anxiety, loneliness, racial exhaustion, and life as a Black woman in America. I don’t have an inspirational ending or advice to give. I just want anyone struggling right now to know one thing: I’m struggling too. You are not alone.

What happens when a person becomes emotionally exhausted from constantly surviving people? In this deeply personal blog post, Ruby Lewis reflects on selfishness, racism, family pain, systemic failure, and the silent burden Black women are expected to carry. Raw, vulnerable, and honest, this piece explores what it feels like to keep surviving while quietly falling apart inside.

A powerful reflection on how racist humor, public entertainment, and viral social media culture affect Black youth, schools, and society. This blog explores the difference between comedy and cruelty, the normalization of harmful stereotypes, and why “it’s just a joke” ignores the real emotional and systemic impact these messages can have on children, classrooms, and marginalized communities.